A Hazy Shade of Winter

[ekaterinn]

*sighs* I hate being so emotional. I wish my emotions would just go /away/ sometimes. I won't go into why I'm feeling emotional right now, because I don't feel like sorting through the tangle of reasons on paper. I'm just going to drink my coca and write because nobody is around to talk to. *sighs* I want my Bej. Or at least someone to talk to. I don't want to be alone right now, but I don't want to go out because it's raining and cold and I'm miserable enough as it is.

I didn't get any sleep last night - I kept tossing and turning and having wierd dreams. If you think this is a depressing entry, be glad I didn't write one this morning. I went to Organic at 8:30 but I didn't learn a thing. Completely and utterly worthless. I don't even know why I'm doing Science. I skipped out of Latin after taking my quiz. I told him I didn't feel well, which was true enough. That was the high point of my day. Let's not even go into Genetics.

I want to see Bej. I think I'll call her tomorrow or Sunday or ask her to call me tonight. I still have to do her surprise. ^^;; And I need to do something for ma belle.

I have so many things to do it's not even funny. I don't feel like doing any of them. I should be sleeping, if I'm not working, but I'm not that tired either. Maybe I should take a nap anyways - I'm going out to see Preaching to the Perverted with Chris tonight and I'll need my energy.

Or maybe not. I think I'll try to get some work done now. If anyone's reading this, thanks for listening.

*disappears*

And the leaves that are green turn to brown...

Comments

[shigure.livejournal.com]

awww (huggles) i know what you mean sukai, i miss okaasama too... she makes everything more tolerable in life... (pouts)

awwwwww

[bejiin.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
Hey love... you SHOULD call me... i'd be so happy to hear from you. Oh well... i'll leave you some story to cheer you up

The waves lap onto the shore touching the tips of my toes. The sun kisses my bare skin where my fuku has been torn. My hair blows in the breezes of the salty air, sticky rainbow strands falling into my face. I know that right now I am not the picture of the princess I used to be. I'm battle weary, bloody, and dying. My darling Toraiko wouldn't love me like I am now, I fear. He's far gone now, but that's for later.
I realize that time is short. Soon I will join my father and of course my predecessor Hino Rei. I can only hope I've lived up to their expectations. How could I, Crystal Mars, even begin to compare with the great Senshi of Mars? And what will my father say? I deserted him on my wedding day. I left him with that awful Van Doom and destroyed our beautiful Tokai in one fell swoop. How my father must hate me. I never even got to say goodbye, I haven't avenged his death either. The father killer still lives. He lives to kill more senshi, he already killed Serenity and her kin. The world is surely lost.
I guess that's why I've returned here, the place where I first met Master Tatsu, fell in love with Toraiko, learned my true self worth. I stand at the place where water meets sand and whisper my story to the wind.
I stood at the waterfront my red hair whipping in the wind behind me. My emerald green eyes frantically searched the water for a ship, my father's ship, the best ship in the whole fleet of the Kalame dynasty.
"Aida!" the worried voice of my tutor shouted from the large cottage further inland. "Aida, your father won't be here for three more hours. Get back in here so that we can continue our lessons."
I giggle softly. Poor Toraiko is still sitting in the school house waiting patiently for our tutor's return. He always has been too cooperative, unlike me. They say I'm wild like the flame, just like my mother used to be. I don't really want to go back to the school room right now. Miss Dracos is teaching us the history of Crystal Tokyo, the city that used to stand where Tokai is now. I don't really want to listen because she's not telling it right. Sure she can fool Toraiko, he's from Kinnatsu; but I know that she's lying. She is afterall a silverleaf, related to the horrid Doom family.
But don't get me started on the Doom family. Someday we will overcome them. It does not matter to me that the process will be long, painful, and riddled with destruction. I am young and ideallistic. Whatever the price is, I'll pay it.
"Aida..." Miss Dracos sounded more insistant this time. I can only guess that I'll have to go back into the school room and memorize the Silverleaf's version of history. I give the shore line one last long search before turning back and walking towards my flustered teacher. After all it's not becoming of a princess to run...
"The prince of Earth tried his best to save his planet. However, the prince had been enchanted by a powerful sorceress from the moon, the self proclaimed princess. An ally of Silverleaf, the Lady Beryl was able to free the earth from the diabolical grasp of the moon sorceress and the dazed prince, unfortunately it came at the cost of the prince's life as well as much of the Earth its self. As you know, the moon witch, like the prince, was reincarnated once the Earth had healed. This time much like the last, the prince was too weak to resist the moon witch. Not even the efforts of Lady Beryl could stop her the second time around. The moon witch easily defeated all who stood in her way and once again began to destroy the Earth. She deceived you all and ruled with an iron fist. Her name, which shall be hated forever, was Serenity."